My Heart Fell For A Guy Who Never Left His Girlfriend
She was in love with him for the second time, had a baby with him, and then found out he was still with his girlfriend. Now he is after her again, and she is emotionally confused.
The moment I made the announcement, he told me that he was not prepared and requested me to abort the baby, but I did not concede. I told him he was welcome to go if that was what he wanted. When he saw that I was not going to change my mind, he said he would remain but candidly informed me, “The love I feel for you is over.”
He was serious.
These nine months were a rollercoaster of emotions. There were a lot of insults, he was neglectful, and he made his indifference to me perfectly clear.
And then I found the texts. There were his chats with the “ex” who was inquiring about the ring. They were clearly still pretty much involved. When I confronted him, he said that there was nothing serious between them. I was weary but decided to keep my composure and concentrate on my baby. By the grace of God, I had a safe delivery.
Two years later, I could not help it and I contacted the other woman to get the real story.
She spilled it all. They had never broken up not even for a moment. He would go to see her, and she would come to see him. After that, she started to reveal personal things about me that he had been telling her. I was shattered. I couldn’t eat or sleep for two days. I began the long, agonizing journey of trying to get over it.
But this is my truth, one I am nearly embarrassed to say: I still love him.
He is back now and says he wants to reconcile. I also heard from one of his friends he would never get married to me but later he claimed that it was just anger talking. A considerable part of me is inclined to forgive him once more.
Nevertheless, a different part of me is scared. Will I have to suffer again? Are the abuse and isolation going to come back?
My feelings are directing me one way, but my past is preventing me from moving forward. I am stuck in the middle, not knowing which way to go.
—Evelyn
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